I did some big work with a friend in my recovery group yesterday. I hope that someday I'll get to the root. Until then, big days like yesterday just happen in the process of talking honestly with another person about the nature of my wrongs.
Today, I had the honor of singing with my worship team. Our leader encouraged us to worship freely because that gave our congregation permission to worship freely. As I was listening to the words I was singing, I realized that they all meant something just a little different than they did when I rehearsed them on Thursday. I felt more joy, less shame. Sounds small, but felt HUGE. It is a reminder of what life is like when I am working on my program.